YOU MATTER, BLAINE
This was the saddest. And it’s DWS all over again. And it’s so interesting, because he’s accomplished all these things Kurt desired so passionately: getting solos, Tony, the presidency. Blaine doesn’t see any of these things as huge, huge deals. Even when Sam says to Blaine that he’s the first gay student president, Blaine’s response is, “Who cares?” None of these things are on his radar.
But it’s too lopsided. He can’t just do things only for Kurt. What does he actually want? He throws his name up on that wall willy nilly, just to see what will stick. Nothing does.
he wants someone to be proud of him, I think.
and that’s not a bad thing to want! or even to need! …. i mean, it’s less than ideal, sure, but if that is how you feel there is nothing wrong with you and i believe it completely. if none of your accomplishments feel real to you until you see them reflected in someone else’s eyes.
(i think what he actually needs from this is not to learn to be okay by himself, but to somehow realize that he has friends, who care about him, and yes, are proud of him too, not just a boyfriend. GLEE CLUB IS FAMILY.)
Yes—he feels like there’s no one to share this with, no one to show that pride about what he’s done. I think, too, that he’s spent so much time thinking about what he’s doing/done for Kurt, that he hasn’t opened himself up to those other friendships. I really liked the small moment he shared with Sam in the end—he hasn’t had many like that, where he’s expressed what he’s feelings to someone and they respond. So, good for him!
The other thing about Blaine’s “I did all of this for him” mantra, though, is that I feel that Kurt doesn’t see this gesture the way Blaine would perhaps like him to. I remember in DWS that Kurt practically rolls his eyes after Blaine makes that statement. Not that Kurt doesn’t appreciate the gesture, but I just think they aren’t on the same page about its significance.